Not enough time in the day!

I work a full time job, raise a family, and go to school ¾ time. So I am pretty busy all the time. I always feel like my mind is running a million miles a minute and it is leaving me behind.

My day starts at 6:00 am when I get my kids up for school and myself up for work. Getting my kids up is a chore in itself. They either fall back to sleep or start playing instead of getting dressed. It is hard for me to stay on them when I am trying to get ready myself. I eventually get them dressed and ready to go and we are out the door by 7:00 or 7:15 most days. I take them to school and head to work after getting my morning coffee. I get to work by 7:30; get everything set up to start my day. I take calls from people all day either wanting to order something or just asking questions about products. No big deal. I work at 4:30 and head to the babysitters to pick up my kids. When we get home, I immediately start dinner. While that is cooking I check my email and school assignments. Maybe even fit in a response or a class video before dinner is done. After dinner I clean up and continue homework until I feel comfortable enough with what I have done to go to bed, and actually be able to sleep without worrying about said school work. I end up getting to bed somewhere between 10:30 and 11:30 and start all over the next day.

No big deal, right? Sounds like a typical day for any working parent. The problem is I always feel like I am running and not getting anywhere. I try to get my husband to help and sometimes he does but it is so hard for me to let go of some of the control sometimes. Some may say I am controlling and sometimes I think I am but honestly, I don’t know how to stop. I would love to not worry about all the stuff I do. I worry about the kids getting to school on time, how they are getting home, the requirements of my job, what we have for dinner, and the kids getting to bed on time. I feel like if I don’t do it, it won’t get done. That is usually the case.

I am just so exhausted. I do not know what to do to make it better. I am afraid I am going to cause myself to have health problems related to stress and worrying. High blood pressure and diabetes run in my family and with my life style I am at high risk for both. I am trying so hard to not feel so overwhelmed all the time but it seems like a never ending battle no matter what I do. My mind is always running even when I try to sleep. I sleep with post it’s by my bed so when I can’t sleep I can write down what is keeping me awake so I can deal with it later. This has helped a little bit with the sleep issue but when I am awake is another story.